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Nate~
Yeah, sometimes I wanna disappear like I just don't exist
I'll find a time machine and take me back when I was six
Maybe younger, either way, I guess the point of it
Would be to tell that little kid that he's gon' take a lot of hits
Yeah, I'd probably grab your hand and tell you life is hard
If you got questions or you need advice, then talk to God
'Cause He's the only one that listens even when you think He isn't
Even good people are great at making bad decisions (Yeah)
They ain't gon' take it serious
You find out pretty quick that life is more than just appearances
I know some things we could avoid to save embarrassment
But everything that breaks you down can also build your character
'Cause people love to see you fail, just be aware of it
Don't let nobody tell you who to be or write your narrative
Look, we're all products of the things that we experience
But there's a big difference between confidence and arrogance
You hearin' this?
I know that you won't get it now, but you gon' get it later
I know that you feel alone and no one loves you maybe
And you gon' cover insecurities with lots of anger
The weird thing is someday all of this will make you famous
You start to write about your life and while they're all relatin'
You'll make up a slogan, call it "Real," but feel like you're the fakest
Wish I could tell you that you're future's nothing but amazin'
That's just not the case, and I guess I just don't know how to say this

I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just want you to know
You gon' make a lot of mistakes
And they gon' laugh in our face
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes (That's just the way that it goes)
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just need you to get it
I know you been questionin' life
Trust me, I know what it's like
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
Do you need someone to listen?

See, mom and dad are not together, they took different routes
But you probably already knew, you gettin' older now
Remember back when mom picked us up from grandma's house?
And she hid her boyfriend in the trunk and drove a couple miles
Down the street and she pulled over to let him out
'Cause she didn't want dad to know she had these type of dudes around
'Cause last time he found out, he had to take us from her
You look uncomfortable, I'm sorry, let me change the subject
You know how we've always struggled with abandonment? (Yeah)
And when we feel like someone's leaving, we start panickin'? (Yeah)
And yo, I wish I could say I've learned to manage it
You think it's bad now, but you don't know the half of it
Passionate, something we have never lacked
We see it the most when we're writing raps
They think it's funny now, let 'em laugh
I know you think it's just an outlet when you're really mad
But you don't know the platform you're about to have
I know some things about the future you ain't ready for
I know some things that you gon' cover up, but can't ignore
And what hurts is they gon' surface at the worst moments
And we gon' act like it don't hurt us, but it hurts, don't it?
We walk around with the devil talkin' on both shoulders
Wish I could tell you that he disappears when we get older
But that's just not the case, and I know you feel out of place
And everything is not okay, and life can be a lot to take, but

I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just want you to know
You gon' make a lot of mistakes
And they gon' laugh in our face
That's part of life, that's just the way that it goes (That's just the way that it goes)
And I don't know if you can hear me or not
But if you can, I just need you to get it
I know you been questionin' life
Trust me, I know what it's like
I'm here for you if you need someone to listen
Do you need someone to listen?

You know how intoxicated people make us nervous?
To the point sometimes we shake and it feels so disturbin'
Don't be scared, that's just trauma tryna reach the surface
And tell us everyone we love is gonna try to hurt us
Which isn't true, but it's a lie that both of us believe in
Yeah, you might get a glimpse of happiness from your achievements
But what you'll learn as you get older, every time you reach one
Is you'll just make another goal that doesn't lead to freedom
See, some things about to happen that you can't imagine
At 24, you'll drop an album, and you'll call it Mansion
At 25, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction
Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one
Yeah, Perception's coming next, we 'bout to reach the masses
It sounds awesome; at the same time, it doesn't matter
At 27, we'll make millions, but it's really sad 'cause
You'll learn to realize that none of this will make you happy

I wish that I could look at you with empathy
Sometimes I feel like I've become what you were scared to be
Which makes it really hard to look at you with sympathy
'Cause if I'm feeling bad for you, then I have to feel bad for me
And that's just something I feel like we don't deserve
That's why I'm always looking down on you, I know it hurts
I'm sure you have a lot of questions
I've been tryna search to find us both some answers
I'll be here for you if things get worse

The Search~
Hey Nate, how's life?
I don't know it's alright
I've been dealin' with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night

I'm sorry
That's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides

Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin me I'm lost gettin too loud
Had to see a therapist then I found out
Somethin' funny's going on up in my house

Yeah started thinkin' maybe I should move out
You know pack my cart take a new route
Clean up my yard get the noose out
Hang up my heart let it air out

I've been searchin'
What does that mean, Nate? I've been learnin'
Grabbin' my keepsakes
Leavin' my burdens
Well I brought a few with me I'm not perfect
Lookin' at the view like this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's prolly gonna be a long journey but hey!

It's worth it though
Cold world out there kids grab your coats
Been a minute I know now I'm back to roam
Looking for the antidote
To crack the code
Pretty vivid I admit it I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone
Talkin' down to me I'mma have to crack your nose
For crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope
You seen it?

Been makin a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces
Yeah

That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup
And drown in self-hatred forget what I'm sayin an ...

Where the beat go?
Ohh
Ain't that somethin'
Drums came in you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head can't tell me nothin'
Gotta taste of the fame had to pump my stomach

Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face clean off my vomit
OCD tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it
Now y'all done it

I can be critical
Never typical
Intricate with every syllable
I'm a criminal
Intimate but never political
Pretty visual
Even if you hate it I make you feel like you're in it though

You call me what you wanna but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought I could never swim in the kiddy pool
Way that I be thinkin' is cinematic it's beautiful
Man I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (Videos)

The sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See we've all got somethin' that we've trapped inside
That we try to suffocate you know hoping it dies
Try to hold it under water
But it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy I am

The point I'm makin is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me this will only take a moment okay

Just think about it for a second if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great
Not because you're not but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith
(Whoo)

I been developin'
Take a look at the benefits
Nothin to meddle with
I could never be delicate
Am I even relevant
That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement
Then bag it up and give me the evidence

Pretty evident
Dependable
Can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman
Depending on if I think your genuine
Pretty elegant
But not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette
I keep it to myself when I celebrate

It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seatbelts back on yeah strap 'em in
Look at me everybody I'm smilin' big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me tone that down, but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound better raise your fist
The search begins
I'm back so enjoy the trip