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    1. Thenorn
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      Reminiscing on the staff application age requirement & determination to succeed​

      Hi, as evidenced from the format, this is going to be the very occasional serious post that I sometimes send out into the void of the forum. After seven and a half years (today is, in fact, exactly that much since I joined Mineplex), I suppose I still haven’t grown out of doing so for my own pleasure.

      The other day, I recalled a specific memory – a thread I made on the old forums in early 2016 on abolishing the age requirement (set to 14 at the time) that gained significant traction. I was 12 years old at the time, about to be affected by the said requirement for nearly two more years – a time period that wasn’t endurable for me back then. I went on to bypass the limit next year, but my behavior showed exactly why one would be vary of giving moderation responsibilities to someone that young. I was sharp for my age, sure, but immature, as nearly everyone at that age is.

      I’d never go back to my teenage years. I did not have the ability to put together why a lot of things were the way they were and why I was struggling with some things. But 12 year old me encountered perhaps the first such question: why were my assertions so belittled by “adults”? I was serious and invested – I really wanted to be a staff member on the server. So why was this dude by the name of Soccerstar0015 telling me (something along the lines of) that I’d regret and cringe at the things I was doing / saying at the time, and that it’s the case for everyone?

      The rest will be posted in the comments.​
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Dec 2, 2022 at 10:55 PM
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        In all fairness, one look at the things I said in the archived version of the thread would tell you I was, indeed, being a melodramatic pre-teen. Rather than being grounded by the aforementioned person’s response, though, I persisted partly out of spite to them. It was fun and I learned to stand up for myself and show I was, in fact, capable. Had the age requirement and people like Soccerstar’s views not been there, I wouldn’t have deemed it necessary to perform and continuously improve.

        I’m older now, but I’d say one thing is the same. Without someone to oppose or question me, I don’t feel motivated enough, even when performing would be for my own benefit. I suppose a lesson I learned mainly through attempting to become a staff member from 2015 through 2017 is that I should not be afraid to prove myself, either to others or to my own self. Otherwise, I am too mellow and will avoid tackling obstacles most of the time.

        There is now an issue a bit more complex and important than the staff position was, which is undergoing gender transition, as all signs have been pointing to me being transgender for a while now. It explains many of the issues I faced as a teenager, but many around me will not be quick to accept the conclusion that I’ve come to. The only way out is very similar – being assertive and proving that I am capable of walking my own path, and that I won’t let others define who I am. Nobody will do my share of work either way, but if someone directly opposes me, I will feel more compelled to tackle it for the sake of not giving up control to others in my own life.

        In conclusion to this ramble I felt compelled to write at 4am – thank you, Mineplex, for the moral life lesson. And hey, this is my first time mentioning I’m trans on here too, so I guess this doubles as a coming out post.
      2. Toki
        Toki
        Dec 4, 2022 at 10:41 AM
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        I know that we haven't talked much for a while, but I am beyond happy for you! Congratulations on taking your first steps towards being who you are meant to be! <3
      3. TheArrowsShadow
        TheArrowsShadow
        Dec 4, 2022 at 4:06 PM
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        Well hello there then, fellow transgender person. I am super happy for you in figuring this out for yourself and taking those steps as they can be scary and overwhelming to even think about. It took me nearly two years to accept that I was fully trans and not gender fluid, as I was just forcing myself to feel feminine in hopes it wouldn't upset my family as much. Congratulations on coming out, (even though you never really stop) and I hope that your future is safe and happy in your new path. Take care \o/
    2. Thenorn
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      filter down, just like the good old ages.

      (can't show any ss for obvious reasons)
    3. Lady_Alyss
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      Happy Birthday Thenorn! I hope you have an amazing day!
    4. BubbleBear1
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      Happy Birthday, Thenorn!!
    5. scarlet
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      happy happy birthday
    6. Thenorn
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      resident of this wall is turning 19 today!
    7. Thenorn
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      like this post for a pencil-related post on your profile!
    8. cloudyjeon
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      Long time no see
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Sep 7, 2022
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        i like pencils
      2. cloudyjeon
        cloudyjeon
        Sep 7, 2022
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        Good for you!
      3. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Sep 7, 2022
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        thank you!
    9. Kindnessaj
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      p e n c i l s
    10. CatFan105
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      Looked back at your wall and realized how long its been since I've talked to you
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Aug 13, 2022
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        it happens
    11. Thenorn
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      i like how i'm an "active" forum user

      random thing to note: a while ago i wanted to get myself banned on the forums to finally quit for good and not be tempted to look back, but i'm glad i didn't do it - it's still a habit to check in here regularly, it doesn't take a lot out of my day and i can do funny things like submit absurd appeals for my equally absurd mutes, among other things
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Aug 8, 2022
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        after nostalgia scrolling through older posts, i also realize i had periods where i was brief and thoughtful whenever i said anything on my wall - one would think i had my life together and that i was happy & popular, but brevity in someone's online expression is only bound to boost that impression. i wasn't always miserable, but i never really "had it together". the internet is fake
    12. Widestsinger
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      [​IMG] just wanted to remind you that this exists
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Jul 27, 2022
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        can't lie, i would rather receive this kind of reply than the generic copy and paste
      2. scarlet
        scarlet
        Jul 27, 2022
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        ah yes i adore this
    13. Thenorn
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      Is this the end of all we know?
      They all float
      Is this the end of all we know?
      Wasted our lives for what?

      Float away
      Do we feed the reaction?
      Do we stay?
      Do we all float away?

      Do you think you know who you are?
      Did you think you had it all worked out well?
      And who could believe those dead-eyed soldiers?
      Red sky rainfall
      The winter beams no beauty
      Just cold-eyed monsters and bare branches
      You can wail to the moon, but that'll just make things worse
      They see you
      They see me
      They see all

      No children in the streets
      Where do they play when freedom here has been revoked?
      The ground which all their fathers soaked
      No medicine
      The scarcity of nourishment is evident

      And where's our god?
      Have we seen that side of heaven yet? No
      Rich, poor
      Clutching to their sheets in horror
      Is there an answer?
      Is there somebody who can take away all the present dismay?
      Bury the light
      Pray through night
      Mayhem in the streets
      No order
      Is there an answer?
      Is there somebody who can take away all the present dismay?
      Bury the light
      Pray through night

      You've buried that, buried that light
      Now pray through night
      What has come down is littered all around in your sight
      It's littered in your sight

      The claim they stake
      A land from us they take
      The claim they stake (They stake)
      A land from us they take (They take)
      The craft he shakes
      A race within his wake
      Victory alone became his above the soil we know
      A grave is laid
      A man within its cage
      Victory alone became his down in the soil he owns

      (Soil we know becomes our own home)
      Soil we know becomes our own home
      Now we're staring at the ground together
      This is not the first time or the last time
      (Soil we know becomes our own home
      Now we're staring at the ground together)
      Now we're staring at the ground together

      Soil we own becomes ours
      Order back in what we know
      Soil we own becomes ours
      Now one with the soil we own
      Soil we own becomes ours
      Order back in what we know
      Soil we own becomes ours
      Now one with the soil we own (Soil we own)
      1. Klobby
        Klobby
        Jul 3, 2022
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        BURY THE LIGHT DEEP WITHIN
        CAST ASIDE THERE'S NO COMING HOME
        WE'RE BURNING CHAOS IN THE WIND
        DRIFTING IN THE OCEAN ALL ALONE
      2. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Jul 3, 2022
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        @Klobby very close, bury the light was sorta inspired by this song
    14. cqsey <3
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      Loving the pencils ;p
      1. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Jul 3, 2022
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        i inhale them during every meal :thumb:
    15. Thenorn
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      In here a tale of a boy who reached the masses
      His name was Billy and he liked to get ****
      A normal guy until the green-skin apocalypse
      A do or die

      There must be something in the water (Besides fluoride and ****) Where he lie
      He threw that gaping brain asunder when he realized, when he realized it's coming down

      We've sown thrones and brought the kings down to knees
      Hello, Here we are, Salutations
      And every day that you wake is a gift that you take from the gods
      That's right!
      You came from the trees and we altered the genes
      Here you are
      All you **** with is wages
      You had the day but you pissed it away
      I think it's time that we show our ways

      Now we shed that violence all over
      Let mayhem in the streets
      From the mountain top to oceans, we own your every need
      It's coming down

      With every breath that we take we can hear that sound
      Somebody needs a reaction to stay on the ground
      With every breath that we take, we can hear that sound

      A green-skin apocalypse
      A do or die

      So Billy heeds the call of fathers
      Release high
      Through these eyes

      Embraces the chi and he praises the weeds
      Holding out for the day he can face them
      Every day that he trains is a slap in the face to the gods
      God Damn

      Shutting out politics
      Viewing beings as equals
      Ain't it funny how that makes sense?
      You had the floor, but you gave it a bore
      Now it's equal
      Can we clean that slate?

      Now shed that violence all over
      Let mayhem in the streets
      From mountain top to oceans, we own your every need
      It's coming down
      Somebody needs a reaction to stay on the ground
      It's coming down

      Follow a trail of the ones who bleed the masses
      Follow behind the reptilian eyes
      A normal day in the green-skin apocalypse
      A do or die

      There must be something in the water where he lie, where he lie
      He threw that gaping brain asunder
      When he realized, when he realized

      National alliance and he leads the fight
      No class, no race, just ****ing violence in their eyes
      A plan for human survival takes to flight
    16. Thenorn
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      wrote my first serious post in four months
    17. Thenorn
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      ngl i miss the excitement of trainee acceptance parties, shame they were too late for me back then

      mineplex was fun :)
    18. Thenorn
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      who likes pencils?
      1. BubbleBear1
        BubbleBear1
        May 7, 2022
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        me!
    19. Thenorn
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      2 years since resignation from staff

      It is safe to say that the day from which two years had passed yesterday, is one of the worse ones in the calendar of my life. All throughout 2020, I did things I am not very proud of. Towards the end of the year I think it stopped worsening and started changing for the better.

      That isn't to say that for the past year and a half, I've been perfect. I had more setbacks than I can count, crises were abundant but at least I have moved somewhere. The same goes for today. I feel like I am now, for a change, a person, not a falling ghost.

      As nostalgia no longer holds its grip and my spirit feels renewed, it is time to continue down this path and live some more.​
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      2. Dallarth
        Dallarth
        Apr 7, 2022
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        Aleksandar never sleeps
      3. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Apr 7, 2022
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        :O
      4. ItsMeTanish
        ItsMeTanish
        Apr 23, 2022
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        Remember, you are always not alone :)
    20. Thenorn
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      Top 15 Anime Bruh Moments, Number 7 Will Surprise You (Dab Alert!!!!)
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      2. CatFan105
        CatFan105
        Mar 30, 2022
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        My most recent poem (besides one that was just my thoughts on the state of mineplelx) was actuwlly free verse, in kind of a symbolic way
        Insanity

        Hearing myself speak
        Is like listening to the ramblings
        Of a madman.
        Speaking on and on
        And sometimes barely at all
        And yet no matter what I say
        No message is conveyed.
        Right as I need it most
        The rhythm
        The conformity
        The constance
        Leaves me
        Leaving me to free verse
        Rambling alone in the dark
        All on my own
        All, all alone
        I try to keep some sort of balance
        But it all falls apart
        Nothing but the incoherent ramblings
        Of one that has gone insane,
        That has seen too much,
        Heard too much,
        Felt too much.
        Been through too much.
        Nothing more.
        Nothing less.
        Nothing
        but the silent screaming
        Of insanity.
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome.
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
        … And expecting something to happen.
        Some response.
        But there is none.
        There is nothing.
        Nothing
        But the silent screaming
        Of insanity.
      3. Thenorn
        Thenorn
        Apr 4, 2022
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        I've been there tbh. Those loops that are incredibly difficult to escape are all too familiar. Your poetry is pretty good btw, better than most that I read online, and I'm quite picky when it comes to my tastes.
      4. CatFan105
        CatFan105
        Apr 4, 2022
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        Thanks
        I also just thought if something recently, although it isn't really poetry

        Some people say, "the world 8s your oyster"
        I prefer to say "you are its pearl"
        A pearl is created when sand or something gets inside of an oyster, and in an effort to get rid of the irritant, the oyster layers the sand with the same material that its shell is made out of.
        The world, like an oyster, may see you as just a pain or an irritant.
        But the people who can take a step back, see the whole picture can appreciate you for who you truly are, and know that you are beautiful.
        I'll have to refine it a bit, but I thinks 8t's a pretty nice quote, especially for one that came to me while I was taking a shower.
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    i used to pen, now i pencil


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    Member - 02/06/15
    Legend - 16/08/15
    Titan - 26/10/15
    Trainee - 16/06/17 (#HeavenlyBatch)
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